How Real Is Your Sexual Fantasy?

by Jonathon on January 11, 2010 · No Comments

Those beautiful women that you oggle at and think about all day.

You know them:

The ones that make you think “How good would it be to bang her”…

As you fantasize about every little detail of her incredible ass, gorgeous legs, unbelievable rack, and impeccable figure.

Have you ever had that fantasy realised? To actually achieve what you’ve wanted for so long?

I have.

And it wasn’t actually anything like I thought it would be. It was just… normal.

In fact, it was just the same as every other non-fantasy I’d ever experienced.

The difference this time was that I had a mental image of the fantasy in my head to compare my real experience to.

I was still the same, I operated the same, the experience was the same with every other non-fantasy I’d experienced.

And this whole time, for some reason I thought it would be different.

What I found, however, was that being caught up in the fulfillment of this fantasy..

I was less present.

It was like I was constantly flitting between the image in my head, and the image in front of me. In my head there were all these other feelings going on.

In reality, it was exactly the same as any other moment.

I wasn’t present because of this fantasy of mine. As a result, she missed out too. With my lack of presence, she closed down, and lost that radiant femininity I was so attracted to in the first place.

So not only did she miss out, due to my fantasy, but I did too.

It was quite the conundrum.

If nothing else, a valuable lesson was gained: all that time spent in fantasy world is utterly fruitless if it stops you from engaging in and enjoying the current moment.

This current moment – THAT’S where all the action is.

That’s where emotion, and feeling, and living occurs, and yet we’re so willing to give all of that up in a flash for something our mind wants to see.

I feel sorry for my fantasy, because it’s not real.

But I am.

Jonathon